By doorways and walls, I pass through
with two faces. I am honoured
and assassinated by fruits and
seeds of the people.
They move their lips, I hear deep shrills.
They whisper like big cannons
at battle. I keep each as a sacred
stone; I throw each as a poisonous tale.
Today, God loves my motion. I merge with
Galileo under seven planets
I am his Dialogue on the Ebb and Flow of the Sea.
But tomorrow will take me suspiciously.
Medusa will come to show
the bogus end of Venus and her beautiful phase.
White weasels come in pack, they smell her
insidiousness; she sits coy on my tongue
while I am categorized.
Back to square rooms, black chairs,
flat carpet,
doorways,
walls,
I pass through with two faces.
I am honoured by amber vials,
assassinated by the pills.
They move their lips,
I hear fuzziness and laughter… quit…
I know I haven’t posted in awhile, but I’ve been figuring out where I go from here! I appreciate all the support I’ve received from all of my friends here through WordPress. So, here is my latest recording!
Doug Alan – Distraction
{Copyright 2006}
I wrote this song many years ago. I have a recording from 2006 when I released it on MySpace, but this is the first time that I’ve gotten a good take for video. I haven’t posted in awhile so I decided this was a good song to start with. Just look at all the chaos unfolding on the Earth! Crazy!
To anyone who has ever heard any of the recordings I’ve done in the past or seen me play, I’m just happy about how far I’ve come. This is the best audio recording I’ve ever been able to accomplish and I’m so happy with the way the video turned out! It’s nothing special, but all the work involved in releasing this song has been so much fun! Thanks for the support!
I’m excited to announce that I will be releasing my first of many songs within the next couple of weeks! I’ve been slaving away, editing my New Video for ‘My Own Worst Enemy’. I’m looking forward to hearing all of your comments. Keep an eye out!
‘My Own Worst Enemy’ is a song that I wrote a few years back. It is a culmination of my inner thoughts of this life and how my mind ponders over as many possible outcomes and reasoning as possible. I want to understand why we are here. I want to understand the reasoning of why things happen. And, because of my tendency to process my environment, it’s difficult for me to function at times. I have trouble understanding the animosity that some people have towards others. At times, I just lock myself away in my house, I live alone. I don’t want to witness the atrocities that this world is so good at creating. All of this makes my daily routine a struggle because I don’t understand why some people are so hell-bent on destroying other people’s wants and needs to feed their own selfishness. Through all of this, I become ‘My Own Worst Enemy’ because my mind rarely shuts off. It is difficult to focus on a daily routine when all of it doesn’t seem to make sense to me.
That’s a short version to attempt an explanation of my thought process on what this song became.
Here is a screenshot of what I’ve been working on. My videos will progressively get more creative and I’m looking forward to pushing my boundaries and see what comes out!
If I tip over, a body will fall out of my own,
a body made of bone twigs and red yarn for hair,
that jangles against itself like a marionette.
Her eyes are shaft buttons that sparkle like
they are not made of plastic, but
rather sliced from the most precious
part of Earth’s insides,
perfected and sewn to her face
by God’s tiny hands.
I am double edged.
I am a shadow inside of a shadow,
black-on-black,
in black.
I have been carved out by time
and circumstance,
and the sharp blade of bad decisions has
carved her stone out of me.
I have seen so many things recently in this Life that just literally make me sick to my stomach! All we do is Fight over who is right and who is wrong instead of trying to help out our fellow Humans! We all have tragedies in our lives and to think that any of my tragedies are worse than anyone else – is arrogance!
I think about the World too much! It’s tough to smile when I can see all of the hurt that people cause each other. I can’t be deceitful. If I’m not happy with what this world is, it is difficult for me to portray happiness. I would rather people see how I really feel and understand how this world affects others as well as myself.
I love my family sooo much! It’s is the ONLY thing that holds me together sometimes. This is why I am very reclusive. It is very tough for me to NOT see the world and the problems that are caused by people that do not allow for understanding and compassion. I have to remove myself from social settings many, many times, because many people only think of themselves. They don’t necessarily do it intentionally, however, it happens very often and it is difficult for me to allow others to hurt me by acting in a “normal” fashion. I hurt just seeing someone else hurt another!
Everyone is different. I can’t help the fact that I see the negativity in the world. It hurts me to see this and I have difficulty portraying that I am happy. I know that I have good things in my Life, but so many do not. And, many people choose to do things that make them “Happy” instead of choosing to see the tragedies and make changes. This society is such that we want to make ourselves “Happy” to stop thinking about the reality of the situation. When this happens, we forget about the people who are still hurting – all-the-while – we are “Happy”.
This is why I choose not to post about sex, the pursuit of money, hatred of others….. etc… I have become frustrated with all of these posts that promote hatred and self-satisfaction, instead of the true humbleness of loving others and not judging one another.
Doug Alan 